My heart is sinking , just like the buildings collapsing . My mind's a total blank , i couldn't think of anything , but just asking myself Why , Why am i so foolish , once again . I can't bring back the past , neither can we be back together , all i can do now is to miss you .Today's a bad day , a very bad day for me . I don't want to talk about it , i f.ing swear , idk what to do now , i can't face up to reality , i'm a bastard .
I can't hold my tears , not even for a single second , neither can i accept the fact . I know something was wrong , i told myself , i must stay calm . Actions speaks louder than words . It seems to be likethat , i didn't keep my promise . Why , why must it be today . Can't it be tomorrow , when all the papers had ended . I swear , my mind was blank , i can't think straight , i controlled my tears , i pretented nothing happened , i put on a mask . But , my heart is telling me , i'm not suppose to be likethat .
When i got my paper today , i didn't know what to do , i stared at it helplessly , knowing i'm not able to fight this battle , i can't even start it . When i flipped open the paper , i stared at the numbers for a veryvery long time . Wondering whats w. the numbers , flashing back all the memories . I couldn't do any of the questions . After calming myself down , i managed to do it . With a couple of questions without steps , but just answers , not any answer that i find myself , but just bombing out any number . I know , the paper is simple , but , i couldn't make it , not in anyway .
I guess , i'm too sad that i can't accept the fact , that where ever i go from now onwards , i'll always have a big wide small on my face , but in my heart , it reads , i have to face reality , i must not continue , i must let go . I bought quite alot of things today , i smiled , i had fun . But , i'm still sad .
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray
I could breakaway
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I lovedI'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And breakaway
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away
And breakaway
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging 'round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway
Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway .
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